in which Konoha Akinori thinks he’s losing his mind. part of the “and I’ll choose you again” Valentines Day series!
genre: angst, fluff warnings: female reader, konoha is sad and anxious :(
you’re like a ghost. or maybe an assassin, Konoha thinks. yeah, an assassin. you’re elusive, going unseen and he fears for his life around every corner because he thinks you’re there, about to strike. again.
he holds his breath when he walks into the house party Komi invited him to, it not only being Valentines Day but also keeping in mind that you’re still good friends with the former libero has Konoha wanting to run out the door at the possibility of you seeing him. its pathetic, really, Konoha thinks. you broke his heart over a year ago and he’s still hung up on you. he still has your extra toothbrush in a cup by the bathroom sink. he still keeps the necklace with your initials in his pocket, and still has the ring he was going to give you in a little black box collecting dust on his desk.
he adjusts his jacket and leans against the kitchen counter, laughing with Sarukui and catching up about life after high school, after college, and where they’re going in life. it’s lighthearted for the time being but Konoha almost crushes the plastic cup in his hands when he sees you in the corner of the living room. the outfit you have on highlighting every curve of you (the ones he got to know so well) your smile and laugh so familiar but now so distant and it pains Konoha. he feels like he’s having an outer body experience and he runs while Sarukui is mid sentence into the bathroom. he stares hard at himself in the mirror, eyes dilated and breathing heavy.
“she’s here. she’s really here, and she’s not mine.” he says to his reflection, as if he’s trying to convince himself for the hundredth time that you didn’t want him, that you were done. there wasn’t a glimmer of hope. was there? he washes his face in the sink and opens the door.
you’re there. you smile. it rips his heart to shreds.
Konoha swallows and smiles at you, “hey, what’s up?”
“nothing much, you?”
he’s silent, eyes darting all over your body and your face. he misses you so bad it hurts.
“nothing...much either. haha” he responds dryly.
“can we talk?” you mumble. and there it is. Konoha’s breath hitches and he nods, trying not to seem to eager. not wanting to come across as the lovesick puppy he still is.
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“Akinori...”
“wait...you broke up with me. don’t...don’t call me that.” Konoha sighs, mentally kicking himself for being cold. why not dig himself down into the hole further? you nod and lean against the wall outside the apartment complex,
“Konoha. im sorry. i know i hurt you, and i know you might not want to hear this but-“
“i don’t. i don’t want to hear how you’ve moved on. how you’re happy, or how you’ve met someone new and you hope im happy!” he blurts, running a hand through his hair in frustration. you stare at him and blink. then you laugh. Konoha looks at you like he looks at himself-like you’ve lost your mind.
“are you laughing at me?” he grits out, and it only makes you smile at him, that beaming smile that makes him so weak.
“i am.”
“what? why? why would you laugh at me? it’s not enough that you broke my heart? it’s not enough that i was going to propose to you the same week you ended things with me? it’s not enough that i still love you and see you everywhere like you’re some kind of apparition? you’re really that cruel?”
you stop your giggles and your mouth falls open, your eyes turning glassy-
“Konoha, if you would stop talking...you could hear what i want to say.” you tentatively take a step towards him and he just shakes his head, looking out towards the starry sky.
“listen to me. Akinori. i love you, and im sorry.”
he shudders, eyes squeezing shut.
“no...no you don’t. you-“ he stops and opens his eyes when he feels your hands cupping his cheeks.
“Akinori, i promise. i was a fool for leaving you, but im an even bigger fool in love with you. please. let’s try again.”
Konoha can’t help it, he really can’t, the way his hands grip your face and he pulls you in to crash his lips against yours. he groans, pressing you closer to him. the way all his senses are flooded with you, as if you were never away from him. you wimper, tears forming fresh in the corners of your eyes and he breaks away from your mouth to kiss each tear away. Konoha hugs you closely to his chest and laughs out of relief,
“hey, im not letting you go ever. okay?”
“ditto, Akinori. i love you.”
and he goes home to dust off the ring box on his desk.
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